Got beaten by my dad 15M

Hey everyone, I’m going through a really tough time at home My dad often gets angry and shouts a lot making me feel anxious and depressed He doesn’t ask how I’m doing or try to understand what I’m going through I study online but I got sick once and had to stop attending classes that break ended up lasting 2 months, and since then I haven’t been able to focus on my studies because of all this stress. I’m also dealing with anxiety disorder and bipolar disorder, which makes everything even harder

Today he beat me up really badly when asked for tests. Growing up, he used to beat me with a belt and even threw a chair at me when I was 7 or 8 i have suicidal thoughts daily and think about ending my life i have no hope in living

He is very toxic and always abuses me never really talks to me and i genuinely dont have a single human being to talk to and i am not pretending anything

I have no human connections other than my parents left, and at this point, I think I can’t make friends anymore or trust anybody. I feel stuck and alone I don’t know what to do, but I just wanted to share this here because I have no one to talk to except chat gpt he helped me write this and like he is the only one i talk to

Thanks