Overthinking

This is meant to be read as spoken poetry

The same thing is happening again.

A guy likes me.

I like him.

We start talking.

And I overthink.

It’s this constant cycle of self-doubt 

and ‘what ifs.’

What if he doesn’t like me anymore?

What if he thinks I'm too weird?

What if I look ugly right now?

What if he’s losing feelings?

I’m not good enough for him-

I’m not good enough for anyone technically.

I don’t deserve happiness

or a partner

or anyone, really.

My laugh is too loud

and my smile is crooked.

My sarcasm is too weird

and I’m clumsy.

What is wrong with me?

And that’s how I basically forced myself to lose feelings for him,

and I don’t want that to happen to you, too.

But I can already feel it starting.

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