I don’t know if I did the right thing

Hi all, I need advice on my situation. I am 29 and dating and relationships is something I am very worried about, I can’t meet someone who it is right with and I’m scared I am doomed

In February this year, I was on a trip abroad solo and I met a lovely man. He worked in the Middle East on a two month on, then two months back in my country. We were chatting and he told me that he was actively applying for roles back in the uk, as he wants to be able to have a normal relationship.

When back from our trip, we went on our first date. It was lovely, but we only had one before he went back to the Middle East

We kept in communication over text for that period, keeping each other updated l. I did get a little bit bothered by his lack of depth over text but I put it down to us not knowing each other yet.

When he came back in May, we went on our next date and there was lots of chemistry. Because we met abroad, and the circumstances were strange for dating we booked a holiday together. We went to Spain for 4 nights.

He was so lovely to me on the trip, really looked after me and ever so caring. I felt happy and excited but also apprehensive as he didn’t have job in the uk yet. I didn’t pressure him or anything though but I did show a curiosity and support into how his job applications were going

Anyway, during the next two months back in the Middle East, he got offered a new job near my town. I was pleased for him and also excited for how our relationship might progress.

But when he came back the next time, I had this weird uneasy nervous feeling. My stomach hurt and I don’t know why. I didn’t feel as attracted to him anymore and I was worried why that was. Then he started talking about how he’s worried the job will be boring and how he will be living not close to his family and how he won’t have any money to do anything. I sensed no excitment on his part about moving to the uk. I felt uneasy about this but didn’t express my concern. Instead I felt really uneasy and less attracted

We went away for a weekend, and he wasn’t as lovely as he was on our last trip. He wasn’t being caring. And in fact we went for a walk home from a vineyard and we didn’t have any phone signal. I didn’t feel comfortable walking on the side of the windy country roads so I found us a public footpath. Instead, I realised it took us a really longwinded route and we got a bit lost. Instead of him laughing it off and seeing the fun side, he got angry, walked ahead of me and said ‘if I had listened to him, we wouldn’t be in this situation.’ I felt tearful because there was such an angry switchup. That wasn’t the only time during the trip either. I felt so sad and uneasy

Anyway, he went back to the Middle East and then he was being cold with me. We still phoned but he had nothing much to say. I didn’t ask him much about the job as I knew he didn’t like that topic.

Suddenly one day he randomly said ‘btw I’ve quit the new job and won’t be moving back.’ I was sad but accepted it. But told him I can’t do a long distance thing anymore

I guess what was bothering me too, was why didn’t I feel much connected with him and why didn’t I feel the attraction much anymore. I worried I was broken there.

I ended things with him. He came back to the uk after his next rotation, I did ask to see him so I can chat for a last time but he wasn’t interested. It’s over.

And I’m turning 30 and I’ve never had a relationship work out and kinda sad and scared this is all my fault. I didn’t intentionally put pressure on him, I knew not to. But all this I don’t know if it’s my fault and if I’m doomed. I want to find love and stable relationship but I can’t find it