I'm sorry

You saw a future with me that I didn't see. I'm afraid of your baggage. I'm afraid of your debt. I'm afraid of your emotional outbursts. I'm afraid that you're not going to grow into a version of yourself that I'd be proud to introduce to my family. I'm afraid of how much you see me, accept me, and continue to want to be with me.

I'm afraid of you being the person that I choose, because this version of you hasn't grown into a version I'm ready to be proud of. I'm sorry that the version of you from a year ago is all I can remember. I'm sorry I told my friends and family so much about the bad times that now I'm ashamed to tell them the good times that have continued.

I'm sorry that I'm throwing something wonderful away. You are something wonderful. I hope you find someone who treats you like the fuck yes you deserve