Depressed, feeling very empty and dull.

Life is just painful sometimes. All I can do is sit and watch it go by. I have done all I can, I have given today my best. But I still feel like I can or should do more.

My brain never switches off, I don't enjoy entertaining things as I once did. I just am stuck in fight mode. I just want to fix everything and make sure everything is sorted. The times I can't eats me. Like I haven't done enough, like I should hate myself for not trying more. I dunno. No one will read or see this so I also have the feeling of just discarding this. Why do I bother