Villainized for having a panic attack by my bf

I had a panic attack right before my boyfriend was supposed to leave at 9pm for a meeting/catch up with his friends. He was there for me the few minutes I started crying but when he was about to leave I just felt paralyzed and started to cry harder, not because he was about to leave, it just happened.

He was saying sorry he had to leave and he’ll be back soon but I couldn’t respond because I was drowning in my thoughts and emotions and then he got frustrated saying “look what you’re doing to my life. What, I can’t leave because you’re crying? I had important plans! Why can’t you just respond? Why do you expect me to drop everything and sacrifice everything just for you? Why can’t you handle it on your own?” Hearing that, I had a full blown hyperventilating panic attack. I haven’t had one in a few years so I was confused at first as to what was happening.

When I regained control of my body, I took some meds and when I finally calmed down I apologized for not being able to respond and I’m sorry he got frustrated but I wish he showed empathy and compassion and he just proceeds to say “So you really just want me to drop everything when you’re sad? Because you’re mentally ill? I had plans!” He got so angry and said I dragged him down with me and ruined his night.

I’ve been feeling shitty all day, likely because it’s all over the news that this girl unalived herself. I think it just triggered something in me.

I would never want my partner to have to choose between me and his own shit but I really don’t think I’m asking for too much here, just basic human decency.