A problem with "social self image". Any advice welcome

Hey there, I'm 19m

My problem is that I absolutely can not tell if people around me love me, or hate my guts. It's like, if we're acquaintances I don't know if you like me or not, and if we're friends or you start expressing that you like me maybe more than that, then I'm still gonna be doubtful if my presence doesn't secretly annoy you.

I have a nice social circle as I'm high functioning thanks to early therapy, but I'm still depressed and didn't have a good childhood with a stable home so may it be linked to that? Do you have any experience with that?