I hate that I’m attracted to him

So much so that I can’t even bring myself to focus on his flaws. He has his flaws and I love him and those. I feel like I have enough space and 5 times more for all of him, his perfections and imperfections.

He’s such an amazing person and I want to not feel attracted to him but I do. Heck, I’m the one who’s been trying to move things forward. He reciprocates but I’m the primary driver. I even got into therapy and started working on myself.

I really like him and I hate that I do. I hate that I couldn’t move on when I first started catching feelings and now I don’t even want to try.

He’s so sweet and kind and respectful and easy to be around. I really like him. I want things to work out and I hate how much I want that.