Will my psych NP be mad?

I was recently prescribed 1mg clonazepam daily (0.5 2x day). He told me not to drink which I haven't at all. But he also told me no Xanax (which I have a bunch of). But lately I've had to take Xanax because of the absolute rage and anxiety I get towards the end of the day. In those moments I'm out of my mind and I really want to self exit. I have the means. It's a struggle to not do it. I need immediate help in those moments. Will he be mad if I tell them that I took Xans too even though he told me not to? I really don't want to lose my benzo script.