I don't know what I want any more.

I keep going into these moods where I don't want to be alone, but I also don't want to be around anyone. I wake up every day feeling mid to high levels of anxiety, I take my medications and they don't really work. My job was absorbed into another department where we are micromanaged, extremely high metrics to meet, and a huge amount of responsibility with extremely minimal training. I know I won't be able to do the work in this department. I've been applying for jobs, I'll get an interview but my anxiety flares up and sabotages me so I don't get the hired. I am on the verge of being homeless because I have no one I can turn to.