my crush misses his ex talking stage

Problem/Goal:

hi guys idk what to do, i'm having problems because idk how to act normal agter this xmas break.

hi guys ahhaa i'm writing this rn at 2:30 a.m and OUT OF TOWN KAMI LATER SO I HAVE LIKE 2 HRS OF SLEEP LEFT. okay start na..

alr so around july i found out na one of my classmates was interested in me. and it came to a point na nagparinig na i'll do the first move.

i didn't. kasi i believed it should be him. pero he had his own reasons as to why he can't, and because of that i didn't know but i was slowly liking him na.

he's a rlly secretive guy so when we were being teased by everyone he was defensive. pero when with his friends he doesn't mind it daw.

so yes, a lot happened pero yes there is spark tlaga. for so long na. i keep remembering all of the stuff that happened and it makes me feel sad.

i thought it was doing okay na, he got me as his manita during our christmas party. everyone shipped us and everything. and after that our cof went and took a photo booth together before the break started.

pero fuck yun pala i found out he still misses her. that's why no matter how that sparkights between me and him, pumapatay. it keeps dying.. and it never rlly connects.

he doesn't know that ik btw. but damn i js feel so shitty rn kay idk what to do bro were all of those for nothing talaga? i already saw his good and attentive side. i saw sm good in him when others couldn't.

now i feel so empty:( move on? hahahaha gago i js wanna be loved.tangina pahabol tlg i thought plot twst q na to pero ot js twisted .y heart in two eme