Why am i so freaking scared. 2 days left

Everything i do before op makes me depressed because in a few days I will be in so much pain without much sleep and pretty much crippled. I play football and get depressed because i wont play for a long time. I can’t even enjoy hanging out with my girlfriend because i wont be able to see her for a while. I am so scared of the pain that comes with night erections and the hyper sensitivity because of phimosis. I am so scared of when my life will be normal again. I am so impatient i have to start life so soon after my operation i think it is like 10 days. I already paid so there is no going back i hope i don’t regret this:( It took me years to build up the courage because stretching never worked. How bad will recovery be for me guys:( I have calmed down since my last post but i am still bad.