I failed med school, now think of how to end it.

For context I am 20, living with parents, studied in M3, got kicked out for academic credits. I failed three exams in row, now thinking of just ending it.

I know I am diagnosed with clinical depression from visiting hospital. I am taking meds. But they didn’t made my life easier. If anything I started to become more and more jaded and dead on emotions.

I feel nothing even since I stated medschool, no joy or drive in it . I chose it cause parents thought it’s a good profession. I thought it would be easy. And instead I realize what a brain dead loser I am there.

Now I am standing, not knowing what to do. Thinking of just ending it.

Mom doesn’t care about my mental condition, nor my pain.

Dad blame everything on mom for my mistakes.

Now they both will get rid of me.

I am one huge waste of space and time. Nothing else and nothing more.