Still think ab it 51 days cold turkey

I 24F started vaping disposables 5 years ago in college just because my friends did it at the time. (Stupid I know, and then I started doing it every day sober obviously instead of just when drinking like originally) vaping doesn’t align wit who I am, I felt guilty doing it and didn’t wanna be dependent on it. I want a clean girl aesthetic, with my baby pink bow Stanley, etc. and vaping just didn’t feel right anymore especially when I heard the nicotine worsens anxiety and I’ve been medicated for anxiety my whole life.

Anyway, I am 51 days in cold turkey (I quit in the new year!), and I am doing pretty good. Just had some headache and irritability the first couple days and now I still think about it a lot and want it when I am drinking.. will I ever stop thinking about it? I heard the urge gets less. But, I’m on a beach vacay and of course they have nic vapes and zyns in the surf shop and it’s so tempting because I’m having bahama mamas and fun drinks and I just would kill for a buzz right now. But the thing is I know that I would just feel sick if I had one rn… I leave to go home tomorrow and I’ve been so proud of myself because I could easily gotten nicotine here if I wanted, but I haven’t. But what’s the point of even quitting if I’m always gonna think about it?? And idk long term if I’ll be able to be strong with being around ppl who vape if I come across a friend w one or something. Even though I pretty much have…. But I guess I might just be thinking too far ahead??