Derealization

Is this DP/DR?

A week ago my buddy came over with some liquor and the strongest weed he could get then I started drinking a can of natural light and smoking the weed, after 2 blunts I had gotten tunnel vision and my heart was going fast so I started having an anxiety attack (I think it was an anxiety attack or it might've been a panic attack) and I was freaking out feeling like I was about to die, I also started to get Deja vu of it being my last moments, and I knew I was panicking so it made me panic even more and I was shaking real bad, every time that I felt my heart getting fast it kept making it faster since I was aware of it, my brain was replaying my best memories so it made me feel like I was really dying even more. Every time someone or something would touch me it had a burning sensation in that spot. Everyone and everything looked so fake, there is other stuff that happened but I can't really remember exactly, it was the most terrifying experience I've ever had. After I woke up the next morning I've been feeling like I died and went to hell since that night and having anxiety, everything and everyone looks completely fake and I fuckin hate it. I can't tell if I really died and this is actually hell and everyone that says it isn't seems their demons or if this is just derealization. I play a bunch of games in my free time every day and it distracts me and helps a little, being in my thoughts makes it worse also, or whenever it's raining/cloudy and watching stuff. I've been praying to God but doesn't help, distracting myself outside just makes it 10x worse, maybe it's because I play a lot of video games or something?

Has anyone had this before, I want to know how I can get rid of it. And whenever I'm thinking about it I get to thinking more and it's already starting to affect my mental health and how I live. I put this into the derealization thingy cause I don't know where else I'd post this.

Posted Mar 5, 2026, 7:57 PM UTC

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