Feeling a bit lost..

Hey everyone, I’ll try to keep this short :)

I’m a 25yo boy from Southern Europe who’s dealt with a lot of insecurity and internalized homophobia growing up. For years I tried to convince myself it was just a phase and that I could just date girls and ignore the part of me that likes guys (I guess I’m something like 30% straight..)

That obviously hasn’t worked, and lately I just feel kind of lost and like I’m “running out of time” cause am getting closer to 30s.. Im a pretty shy and introverted boy when it comes to meeting guys on dating apps, so that hasn’t really gone anywhere either..

I feel like I need time, things in common, romance, and a real connection with people—not just plain sex (even though I want that too eventually)..

I am considered a good looking guy and I always had my flirts when I worked outside, (I work from home now), but I never chased anything since I was scared and hadn't accept that part of myself yet..

Should I push myself to use dating apps more and try to be open? I’m planning to move somewhere else in Southern Europe next year where things might be easier, but until then I don’t want to keep ignoring this part of my life more.. Any advices or tips? :c