Psychiatrist Recs: ADHD, OCD, CPTSD, Anxiety, and MDD

Hey, I'm a POC female looking for psychiatrists who are genuinely good when specializing in these and take insurance. I left my psych a while ago after undergoing ketamine treatment for MDD that wasn't working and feeling like my meds were constantly being changed and not doing me any good. I'm with an NP right now and she's great because she really listens but she's overseen by that same psych and diagnosed me with ADHD and I'm just not sure if that's what I have. At least everyone around me thinks that's not what I have. I think it's more CPTSD causing depression/anxiety with some signs of ADHD and the stimulants help a lot with emotional regulation and not acting on my emotions but rather having some more patience and logical thinking. However, I still feel depressed at times and the crash after the stimulant can feel hard especially when it causes mood swings. I tried a mood stabilizer but terrible side effectss so now I'm being switched to an extended-release nighttime stimulant but she keeps wondering what that bridge is between my desire to take action + having the energy to do so because of the stimulant and actually taking the action. I'm like I think it's just a shit ton of fear and intrusive thoughts. I just want some damn answers and to be on the right meds while in trauma-focused therapy. I'm so tired of the mental health world being full of bullshit providers. Sometimes I wish there was a med to stop the level of emotional intensity it takes you always feel like your world is on fire and you are ok with setting the rest of the world on fire too.