I can’t feel happy anymore unless I’m busy

I can’t feel happy anymore unless I’m busy with certain people or spending money.

Recently I’ve been struggling with my mental health a lot and I tend to overthink but whenever the week comes I am happy because I hang out with people at school, stay fit, etc and then the afternoon comes and I feel down, can’t clean my room or do anything productive and will call my friend.

My friend is not able to call me today and we fell out yesterday which made me depressed the whole day even though I was hanging out with another friend I didn’t gain anything from it.

I hate the weekends now because that’s when I’m alone and not busy.

I used to drink a lot basically everyday but I don’t anymore because I know it’s bad and that I can control it and I’ve gained weight from it etc.

I just need friends but I’m so isolated and attached to the one and their moods and absence affect me a lot and I don’t know how to unattach myself.

This morning I cried about yesterday and that I don’t feel good about how I look anymore. I feel ugly with and without makeup and don’t think I’ll be able to feel good about myself for a while.

This afternoon feels so long without the calling and I hate it. I can’t even push myself to watch TikTok or something educational because I feel alone or sad still not doing it with someone.