hi! atm i can't go to a derma so i'm hoping someone can help me still :(

i'm so tired of fixing this idk anymore what to do.

this is my current skincare:

AM:

toner: roundlab dokdo toner

serums: anua azelaic acid and skin1004 cica (brown one)

moisturizer: purito bamboo panthenol

sunscreen: skin 1004 centella hyalu cica

PM:

cleanser: cetaphil gentle cleanser

exfoliator (1x a week): fresh skinlab vit c 

toner: roundlab dokdo toner

serums: anua azelaic acid and skin1004 cica (brown one)

moisturizer: aestura atobarrier cream

\- i turn into an even worse shade of red due to emotions, heat, sensitivity etc

\- this is my normal skin even after showering

\- i used to have clear skin:((( i'm not someone who breaks out but i notice it's more common now. maybe it's cuz my skin barrier is broken but i js wanna cry bru

\- my skin has no texture, i swear it's rlly soft and also rlly glassy (it shines). i achieved this, but then the redness and the scars are js so annoying. 

\- i think the azelaic acid is making my skin worse lol.

pls help me, do i have rosacea? if yes what do i do to get rid of this? and btw i don't have access to a derma bc my parents aren't supportive of it even tho i'm 18. i'm basically saying FUCK MY LIFE AT THIS POINT.

skin redness + marks