I don’t know what to do anymore

For context, I’ve been struggling with pretty severe OCD, that has gotten worse these past 5 or so years. Tomorrow is my 22nd birthday, and originally I had 2-3 friends planning on visiting me for a party of some sort, but OCD decided to be ocd and over the past month or so, I’ve lost all of those friends due to making them uncomfortable via my compulsive confessing. I fucking suck as a human being. I know what I did was wrong but I can’t help but to confess and make more people uncomfortable. I feel like all the things I’ve done in the past is worthy of confessing to people, because if I don’t then, “I would be tricking people into thinking that I’m a good person, even though I’m not”, or that’s what my brain likes to think.