miss you more when it's raining

it’s past midnight and i’m just staring at my ceiling listening to the rain outside. honestly it sucks because this weather always reminds me of how we used to just stay in and do absolutely nothing for hours. we would just watch dumb movies and talk about everything and nothing. now my room just feels completely huge and empty and it's kind of messing with my head tonight.

i keep telling myself that breaking up was for the best and i’ve been doing okay during the day mostly. i stay busy with work and stuff but as soon as everything goes quiet at night my brain just spirals. i keep checking my phone even though i know your name isn't gonna pop up. it’s just a really hard habit to break i guess.

idk i just really needed to vent this out somewhere so i wouldn't text you. if anyone else is awake and just wants to talk about random things to help keep my mind off stuff, i'd really appreciate it rn.