I can't get taller and I despise my mom for it.

I came out as trans at 10 and I started puberty shortly after (10-11 yo) and obviously I haven't changed my mind since. I despise my mom for not listening to me and getting me on hormone blockers, I know no one ever take children seriously when it comes to that sort of things but I fucking wish she did.

Now I'm older (still minor), I'm trying to get on T because obviously now hormone blockers won't do anything since I already have everything from female puberty, I hate it.

I keep telling myself I'm not done growing up yet but I know it won't fucking change, I'm stuck at 165 cm (≈5'5). And I've already been literally traumatized by female puberty and I'll have to go through ANOTHER puberty just to try and live normally.

Honestly everything fucking sucks, I keep seeing these guys like "I got puberty blockers at 8, got on T at 12" genuinely STFU.