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Hello everyone, I currently have a debate with my friends : if you and your friend have to put a finger up the other's ass mutually, in which position are you doing it?

please close the debate, they've been talking about it for a week 😭

I had my first appointment with an endocrinologist yesterday, next appointment in November, and if everything goes well I should start T betweenafter the second appointment and the June 2027

Really excited!

I had a crush on that one guy but he rejected me, no big deal, we stayed friends.

I actually enjoyed hanging out with him but he started ignoring me to talk to literally any other people who were with us so I comforted him because he was glued to one of the girls of our group and it made not only me but everyone else that was there uncomfortable.

We talked a lot, turns out he has no common sense and we need to "tell him that he was running the mood" as if he was a child and forgot there was other people there.

He ended up telling me that he has tried so hard to like me but he couldn't so he gave up because otherwise he would just be lying. He never liked me but let me have a one sided fri

I came out as trans at 10 and I started puberty shortly after (10-11 yo) and obviously I haven't changed my mind since. I despise my mom for not listening to me and getting me on hormone blockers, I know no one ever take children seriously when it comes to that sort of things but I fucking wish she did.

Now I'm older (still minor), I'm trying to get on T because obviously now hormone blockers won't do anything since I already have everything from female puberty, I hate it.

I keep telling myself I'm not done growing up yet but I know it won't fucking change, I'm stuck at 165 cm (≈5'5). And I've already been literally traumatized by female puberty and I'll have to go through ANOTHER puberty

When I started having my periods, they were PAINFUL, to the point where I was always nauseous and was missing 2-3 days of school every month ever since I was 11.

I started taking the pills to stop them and additionally because of my trans identity, but I still had random pain and it was really annoying. I went to tons of doctors, did lots of ultrasounds and MRIs and only recently they noticed some kind of mass in my uterus/pelvis but it's apparently not endometriosis (I was told "it's the same pain but not the same name)

They sent me to a gynecologist and she told me it was not normal to have pain while on the pill (no shit) but she didn't want to give me another pill because apart from so

I've been in a depressive episode for at least the last week and the people who know about it keep suggesting to talk about it in therapy. No thank you, I don't care about therapy.

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Context, I'm a minor and to be able to take T, I need parental and medical consent so I have to go to therapy for them to make sur I don't change my mind or something. I got there ONLY so they help me get T, not to vent and be a crybaby.

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Almost all of my problems that cause the depressive episodes are rooted in the fact that I'm trans : my relationship with family, my loneliness, my dysphoria, literally almost all because I'm trans.

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I don't fucking care about therapy, I'm not here

So I have a cat, and I call her my baby most of the time, sometimes my daughter, and my mom seems obsessed by calling me her mom??

Like, I call myself her dad and have asked my mom multiple times to stop calling me like that but she keeps doing it. I don't really care because if my cat is smart, (she's not, if she was) I'm sure she knows I'm her dad 🤓

(for anyone that wants a cat pic, she's on my pfp)

Every time I tell myself maybe I'm too harsh with her, she reminds me that I really don't fucking like her.

So I came out really early and she always calls me by my deadname except sometimes in front of others, so last year when we were on holiday in another country, I told her to be more quiet everytime she would call me because I didn't want anyone (especially since no one might already know me) to hear it and associate me with a girls name. That's one part of it.

Today, we were at the mall and I asked if I could get a piercing replacement (I didn't have my money and she didn't seem to mind buying it, and she really did buy it), the woman selling it to us asked me if it hurt when I got m

There's that one girl in my school (let's say L), she looks very masculine and everyone in my friend group thought she and her girlfriend were a straight couple. I discovered she was indeed a girl because one of my friends got closer to her since L is a friend of my friend's boyfriend.

I'm so fucking jealous of her, her face looks masculine and she has a flat chest which I especially hate because I feel like it's worst when I wear my binder since it's visible under my shirt and she doesn't have to do anything because her's doesn't show.

I at first wanted to avoid L and her girlfriend (because of everything said above but also because I hate couples) but since my friend is close with them,

I'd like to know if I'm the only one feeling like that but even since puberty, I have felt so detached from my body that I have been trying to sexualize it (sometimes while not being aware of it) to maybe feel connected to it somehow?

It's really weird to explain (I have been stopped from sexualizing it as a child/preteen, thankfully)

I'm pre-everything so it'll probably change during my transition.

I'm sorry if it seems really not understandable but I really don't know how to explain it better 🫠

So I have two brothers (both cis) and I've only recently discovered that they are both colorblind.

I'm not, simply because I'm AFAB and it comes from my mom's genes because my grandpa is also colorblind (so it skipped my mom as well)

I don't REALLY feel dysphoric about it (shockingly) but I think it's pretty funny

Also fun fact, I'm an artist (so I have no problems) but so is my oldest brother and he's the most colorblind of us lmaoo