I wish I could be truly indifferent

I’ve been very angry about a lot of things. I hate my job. I hate how little it pays. I hate how patient I have to be. I hate working. I hate my brother. I hate feeling let down.

But most of all, I’m exhausted. I just want to rest and not worry about tomorrow. I want to stop caring. I just want it to slide off my back and feel indifferent. I tell myself I don’t care and I end up caring way more than I originally intended to. I’m angry at myself for placing too much interest on truly uninteresting things.