I think I’m a really boring person with no interests. I made a list and I proved myself very wrong.

When I’m with people, I always think to myself “how can people talk to each other so easily as if they have pretty much everything in common?” Like people can just talk about anything and I’m just sat there clueless.

I keep getting into my head that I’m just such a dull boring person. See, I’m currently in a very boring and lonely part of my life. My friends barely message me now. I’m not even a part of their group chat. They all talk to each other fine. I’m always the one to start a conversation first but then eventually fall out of the loop because they start to talk about something that they have in common.

So now that I feel, and basically am, alone, I thought that I’m going to start doing things to find myself a bit more. Try and feel more at ease with things and doing things to satisfy myself more. Simply trying to take a step back. Call it what you want, because I’m not sure how to describe it myself. I’ve got all the time in the world since I’m not employed at the moment.

Within the last half an hour, I was thinking to myself about my interests. I’m always stuck on what my interests are. I gave myself a few minutes to put some down. I managed to get 23 down.

It’s made me feel happy. I don’t feel like I’m a boring individual to myself anymore. Yeah I might still be to some people, but surely there are people out there that like things that I like? Maybe even the exact same things? It’s just simply trying to find these people. I wish it was easier.