Envy? Resentment? Neither?

Hi everyone, I’m looking for some support and advice on an emotional reaction I keep having.

For a long time, whenever I look at art, watch talented people, or listen to music (especially singers I really admire), I get this sudden weird mix of envy and a kind of low-level resentment or sadness. It happens almost instantly, before I can stop it. I don’t actually hate anyone, and I can still enjoy the work sometimes, but other times it flips into this heavy feeling of “I’ll never be like that”

A clear example is listening to Ado. Some days I can just enjoy her music normally. Other days it makes me feel sad, like her talent and the attention she gets highlight how far I am from where I want to be with my own singing. I know I’m not good at it right now and that comparison is pointless, but the feeling still hits hard and kills my motivation.

I don’t want this to stay with me forever. I want to be able to appreciate talent without immediately turning it into self-doubt or losing the drive to improve. Has anyone else dealt with this kind of instant envy/resentment toward people whose work they actually like? Is noticing it now a good sign, or does it tend to get harder to change the longer it goes on?

Any advice or shared experiences would really help. Thanks for reading.