Almost a year since she ghosted me and three years since we met

I think the year apart has really helped.

I also went through a few rounds ivf in the last 6 months by myself that I feel has changed me dramatically, in a good way. For preservation. It’s made me clearer about what I want in life, and also made me want to get my life together to be a better parent. It’s made me feel clear that she wouldn’t make a good parent or spouse (lol clearly - she wasn’t even around..)

It feels like the fog has started to lift, and the weeks just get clearer and clearer (also scary how foggy things were for so long! I’m not sure if it’s some woo woo thing as well but it didn’t feel foggy before I met her. Such coincidental timing. Though I’m thankful for a lot of the experiences I shared with her, I guess I’m also thankful it’s over..)

I finally gained clarity and direction for my work, which has been such a blur for years!

I’m overall excited and also quite nervous what’s ahead, but I think it’s gonna be great. Having clarity and feeling healed is such a wonderful feeling. (I’m sure there will be ups and downs, but I’ll take the win today with how I’m feeling…)

A part of me is feeling a little sentimental, as September held so many strange meanings when it came to this person. Luckily, my schedule is also extremely packed with things to do for my work, and I’m grateful for it!

Thankful for all the encouragement I’ve received here as well. 💕