I hate how my true personality can’t seem to shine through because of SM.

I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately- I feel like when people meet me, they either think I’m weird or that I’m a bitch because I’m so quiet. I feel like it causes people to dislike me. It kills me because I’m a very nice person but I feel like I can’t show that because of SM. People who I’m not comfortable around just see an anxious shell of a person instead of who I truly am- it’s like I have two completely different personalities based on who I’m talking to and I hate it. It’s one of the many things I hate about SM.