Deadbedroom after cuckolding

51M, married 24 years, wife 56F. We love each other, but we've had almost no sex since late 2025, maybe 3 times and very short.

From 2014 to 2025 i was the chaser, frustrated, sometimes good but alwats up to me. I lost my self esteem, got bad PE and developed a cuckold fantasy. After a few years talking she decided she wanted it.

She became extremely slutty for others and our sexlife was briefly great.She had a few different sex dates and one very intense solo sex date.

Squirting 5 times during a rough, intense 2 hour constant pounding (her words). I discovered she had lied and gone behind my back to kind of maniulate me to agree to it with him.

That left me with some significant feelings of rejection and damaged trust, but we're trying to work through it.

We're now in couples therapy. I've been trying to stop chasing sex and focus on rebuilding intimacy. I'd genuinely be happy with regular affection, touching, kissing and sensuality for now it doesn't have to lead to PIV.

The problem is that whenever we start addressing the difficult stuff between us, intimacy disappears again. We get a little closer, hit something difficult, she withdraws, and we're back to square one.

I still love her and want to make this work. But I'm reaching the point where I can't continue with no physical intimacy especially after seeing how much of a wild slut she can be.