[RANT] Dear Depression,
Fuck you.
Fuck you for hitting me at random times throughout my day and making me think I'm either free when my mind is off it or think that this is gonna be a never ending spiral if it persists.
Fuck you for making me feel unable to focus on a single task for more than a few seconds, making me stare off into space in the middle of typing this sentence.
Fuck you for giving me these warped thoughts about how everybody must hate me, how I'm not good enough.
Fuck you for making me doubt your existence at times, making me wonder if it's a grand ploy to romanticize myself.
Fuck you for robbing me of my sense of self, making me cringe about everything I've done and been even after I've grown from it.
Fuck you for making it hard to practice my acting, the one outlet that protects me from you.
Fuck you. Fuck you. Fuck you.
No love,
Doctor_Chill
Posted May 1, 2014, 12:57 AM UTC
Looks like Doctor_Chill isn't so chill... Sorry had to. I know that it sucks, and fuck depression. I wish the damn thing never existed and it sucks that it does. It makes things suck and if you ever need to talk about it this sub is a place where you can let it out
I noticed that as I was typing. I'm much more "chill" when I'm not low, unfortunately, it's been hitting me hard to day (possibly due to academic stress, possibly due to homesickness, and possibly due to overworking myself.) Honestly, after posting this it got a lot better. Usually the things that help me are either acting, humor (particularly related to acting,) and writing it all down and externalizing it.
Well I am glad that you are feeling more 'chill' man! If you feel that you are overworking yourself maybe try to do something fun this weekend. You know to get away from it all. Just a suggestion. I myself like camping. It puts me near people I know and trust, and also there is plenty of time just to relax around the fire eating and talking to other people
I wish I could, but I have 2 more finals next week. Luckily summer is approaching.
Then you have that to look forwards to. Best of luck to you!
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