I shake at the thought of you

Tldr; This post is about my pathetic love for my crush.

I've liked you for 5 years. 5.. years..... that's a long time. Every one of the friends we share know it. I'm really just wondering if you know it, or at least got a hint of the things I did for you, the things I offered you, the things I tolorated......... the things I've changed for you... Do you notice?

And if you do.. my greatest fear is that all these sacrifices for you.. annoyed you. I really don't mean to put you down when I try to correct you on something. I really don't mean to hurt your feelings when I joke about you or anyone else. I really just wanted to help... to be funny to you... to see if you'd like me for who I am..........

Over the years I've doubted many times that you and I would be compatible.... but there were times where I felt like I could die there next to you and everything will be just fine. Overall... I am willing to make sacrifices to feel that way with you again.

I am shaking right now because of that great fear I just mentioned. I hope you like me for who I am. I like you for who you are. I think I've given enough time for me to know that.... hah....... 5 years.

I'll see you tomorrow. And when I do.. I'll make sure to hide my pride.. be smart.. be sincere to you...... because you mean so much to me than you'll ever know........

Thank you for the chocolate roses. I didn't show it, but they really mean so much to me...