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WindKin

Day 18 - I spot light in the distance.

Hey guys.

I know, I was whining about anxiety just a couple of days ago, so I thought I'd post about something positive for a change.

Rest assured, the depression and the anxiety DOES go away. It does. I'm not lying.

Day 14 was one long, protracted day of pure panic, anxiety and depression for no reason.

Day 15 was a little better.

The last couple of days have been... better. A lot better. I smile again. I find myself having an interestin my work again. I don't overthink things. My muscles aren't tense 90% of the day.

Do I have moments when my face flushes, my shoulders tense, I start sweating and start wondering about every little thing on earth? Sure. They're still there. But they're getting shorter, easier to handle, and fewer in number.

I still don't get any cravings. I don't connect any of this to smoking, to me it's just my brain chemistry recalibrating its nerve signals.

I still remember day 1 and 2 so vividly I hold my breath when I pass smokers on the street. Why? Out of pure, stark fear. What if there's any left in the second hand smoke that kicks off another two days of pure hell?

Nu-uh. Ain't dealing with that, I've got shit to do. One month of being weird will be more than enough. I'm staying quit.

Thanks for listening and bearing with me.

Posted Mar 24, 2015, 10:11 PM UTC

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muffyns250 days•

good job keep it up!

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NotABoyNotYetAWoman•

Good for you!! I'm on day 24 and finally feeling like myself again. Keep it up!!

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c-fox78 days•

You should request a badge. Looks like we quit at the same time.

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NotABoyNotYetAWoman•

How do I request one? Are you still going strong? I'm having a rough week but holding on.

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c-fox82 days•

On the right hand side of the stopsmoking homepage there is a request a badge link.
Yes, I'm still off them. Went cold turkey and have had an easy time of it. I was only smoking 5-10 a day. Had a few cravings in the last week but chew gum and try to forget about it.

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ahubbard12399 days•

Hey! Congrats on sticking it out! Great job! Are you currently on medications for your anxiety and depression? It might be something to talk to your doctor about!

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tuxskynet77 days•

Wow ! I'm inspired to stay clean ! I'm having a craving right now and all I'm doing is going through this sub.

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Stoppedobo87 days•

Well done! The fact you didn't let the cravings beat you makes you stronger! Keep going!! Relax and be proud. You are beating this one craving at a time. It is bad at times. BUT does get better! Although I didn't believe it when others on here told me this! You are doing and CAN do this! Lets not smoke today, because we ARE non smokers!

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Jixaw77 days•

It's great to see someone else's reflection on their journey. i seriously have the same stuff going on for me. the random depression. the panic, the muscle tense. But as you said. It's going away. slowly, but steady.

I didn't even realize it until i read this post, but i haven't had a bad week at work! i sacrificed my weekend to finish a movie, and i didn't mind! i havent had a free day since 2 weeks ago. And i am okay! holy shit!

About the second hand smoke though, i still hold my breath or walk some distance from smokers. I am seriously scared that it might do something to me still :( plus they smell like shit.

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