A Letter To Him

Anxiety inside of me
so i move very quietly.
Insanity will drive me screaming profanity.

There's nothing at this point that can ease me down
oh, how i wish
nice and slowly you can help me out.

but it's not any easier when you're not here,
and when you're gone i face my demons without fear.

Although, i find myself sad as soon as i push them away.
For they only replace a big part that you can't seem to be in.
It hurts so much, because my demons dance to the sound of your voice,
mines just sounds like irritating white noise.

You don't understand what you do to them.
Your touch sends them running rituals around a fire.
Your kiss, keeps them silent, at a bliss.

But i love my demons, because they love you.
When you look at me, i feel you know more about me than myself.
It isn't at all fair, only because it took you nine months and i've been at it for nineteen years.

I'm the broken lover who wipes her own tears.
i don't want you to go, keep kissing me, please stay.
Hold my hand, let me know everything will be ok?!

You've given me nothing to hold on to.
When you drive away, it hurts to hear you go.
i had to regain my strength because i used my last bit closing the passenger door.

https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/comments/407xjy/the_brightest_silence/
https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/comments/40fjr0/drifting_into_nothing/