I stop by the gas station after work

I tell myself to fuck off and drive to the gas station type establishment down the street

14 hour work day turns my brain into silly putty

I lose control of my motor skills and somersault off of my stupid moped

Kick open the door to the store

Middle fingers held high at everyone I see

Muttering lines from pulp fiction and barking occasionally

I make my way through the labyrinth of craft beer that I'm too young to buy

Some Mozart type shit I think I heard in pride and prejudice plays at an obscene volume

It gives me a nose bleed

I spit on a candy bar and keep walking

Don't even know why I'm here there wasn't anything I even wanted to buy I am just sick of being twenty years old and at home on the Internet

I yell unintelligibly at a rack of pretentious popcorn right in its fucking face

Violently grab some blue Gatorade because that's my new favorite flavor of Gatorade for some stupid reason that could probably be explained by stupid science

I rip the person in front of me back by the hood of their jacket and march up to the counter

Pull my id out of my backpack with my teeth and drop it onto the counter covered in tobacco saliva

Ask for the most expensive pack of menthols they have

Hand over a bag of nine hundred and something pennies

Tell them to keep the change

Whisper I'm sorry

Kick open the door once more

I tell myself to take a fucking chill pill and then to fuck off once again

And drive home with the intention of taking buzzfeed quizzes until I pass out

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