Afraid that my depression makes me unlovable.
I'm worried that my depression deems me not worthwhile in the eyes of others. Not just my attitude.
My depression, from here on out, is a secret to everyone I meet. I'm so scared that someone will find out that I'm mentally ill and drop me like hot rocks. It would be just awful to find a great friend or a nice girl and have them abandon you just because you have depression. I'm so afraid of falling in love or something and then having them find out that I have depression and calling off the relationship because that's a dealbreaker to them.
It's not that uncommon to have a bad experience with someone who's mentally ill that could put a bad taste in anyone's mouth. I wouldn't put it past someone to call off a relationship because of that and I also wouldn't blame them. I'm sometimes rendered non-functional by it.
Posted Apr 30, 2016, 4:40 AM UTC
It's not a deal breaker don't worry, there's plenty of people out there that would look out for you. I've only ever told one person about my depression and shes always been there for me since I opened up to her about it, we weren't even good friends at this stage, I was just so down that day i needed to tell someone about it and it was a good decision, although I'm not ready to tell my family or any other friends about it. So don't be thinking people will up and leave as soon as they hear you've a slight problem, relationships are meant to be built on trust and overcoming problems, don't worry about opening up to someone you trust in a relationship. If you ever wanna talk you can pm me I'll happily be there for you :)