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18 month Update: My husband killed himself

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Some of you may remember me. I lost my husband to suicide in May of last year and lurk a lot, post a little.

I wanted to share some happy updates. I've been reflecting a lot lately on where I've been and all that's happened since then. The big one being last Friday, I got the keys to my first home <3. It was a mixed bag of emotions. I felt extremely proud of being able to buy a house on my own for me and my daughter but also bittersweet that I was moving on in such a big way.

We've also conquered some behavioral stuff lately with the help of play therapy (highly recommend if you can afford it/insurance covers it). We were having twice daily biting a few months back with no sign of slowing down and she's done with that for the time being it seems :) We also got her potty trained except for naps and bedtime. It's also been hugely helpful for helping her work through understanding what it means that daddy died and all of the emotional fallout and processing that continues to come with her constant regrieving.

AAAND! The weight has slowly been coming off and I'm the lightest I've been since before she was born nearly 3 years ago.

It's not been easy. There have been a lot of tears, a lot of heartache, a lot of therapy, a lot of anger and resentment but I'm in a good place today.

Thanks for letting me share <3

Posted Nov 22, 2016, 7:54 PM UTC

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silverwolfer•

Good job, and may you find more light.

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E-UnitOPHot mess express•

<3 Same to you.

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theresallthatI can throw tantrums, too.•

What a wonderful update! You took an unimaginably shitty situation and not just dealt with it, but pushed beyond it for yourself and your daughter. You're freaking amazing. Keep doing what you're doing, and please keep us updated on all of it!

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E-UnitOPHot mess express•

Thank you for your kind words. And everyone else's as well. Seeing her little face light up as she saw her room and got to run around in the backyard (in the dark and it was totally muddy mind you haha) made it all worth it <3.

Looking forward to many happy memories being made there.

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happy_go_lucky•

I'm glad to hear things are going well for you! You deserve good things in life. And you can be really really proud of yourself for everything you achieved!!! Lots of hugs!!!!

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disenchantedprincess•

Keep following the light. May it guide you through the coming holidays which I know will be rough for you and your family. You are amazing, thank you for sharing.

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fireash•

I'm so glad to hear things are getting better for you guys. I hope things continue to improve.

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FlitterbeeWhere's my caffeine IV drip?•

I was just thinking of you yesterday. <3 I'm glad that some things are going well for you, you've worked very hard to come to where you are in the aftermath of such a horrible tragedy.

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ima_sickfuck•

I remember when you made the post about your hisband's suicide. I can't believe it's been 18 months. It sounds like you are handling things so well, considering your tragic loss. Keep on keeping on, mama.

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not_just_amwac2 mischievous boys•

Hugs! Glad to have an update from you! It's been a long while.

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Derparita10 year old girl with ADD, 7 year old girl with ADHD•

I am happy that things are looking up for you.

I lost my ex to suicide last summer as well. If you ever need an ear, I'm here.

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katarzynawidrainbow hair to reflect the bullshit of modern parenting•

Hugs and congratulations.

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Gorang_UsernameI have no idea what I'm doing•

Congratulations, that's amazing for you and your daughter :)

Hugs

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Momma_Sasquatch15y/o wild Sasquatch•

There's not much that can be said other than, you're awesome. It's hard I'm sure, but you're not alone, BroMo is always here for you

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themildonesleave the cords alone ffs•

I'm so happy for you and all you've accomplished! Buying your first place is huge. I really hope things continue to look up for you and your daughter!

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aussiescientist•

Congrats on the new home, I wish you and your daughter a lifetime of happiness there.

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flickaB•

I'm new here but wanted to say I'm glad you're moving on and congrats on your new home. I wish you and your daughter all the best.

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GalileoRules•

Mad respect.

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CianistarleSend Mead•

Thank you so much for the update. I have been thinking of you. Please feel free to continue to talk to us.

I want you to know that you are good, and for lots of us, you have been on our minds.

Peace be with you.

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ZenMommy•

Thank you so much for updating us all. I think about you every once in a while and send out some "I hope you are okay!" vibes. Hugs you're doing amazing and your daughter is so lucky to have you.

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