And honestly that was just a title I don't title any of my poetry for that reason this isn't necessarily directly about suicide the first half of each segment is something that people do and the second half is how that same thing can be the end of you want it  

It's very hectic, that's the very first thing I noticed. Now, I have nothing against hectic poems but what seems to be missing is a strong sentiment to hammer it home. Your intention really seemed to be trying to convey this feeling of despair, but the form (or lack) doesn't do that intention justice. Your last paragraph ends, and I'm wondering if that's it. 

But I do like it. 
Wonderful first line(!), and the repetition also didn't come across as "too much". The loss of any coherent syntax / punctuation is a bold move, but helps to express a certain hopelessness. 

Edit: also, the idea of having those first and second part to each sentence/paragraph (to see if you're good at it as supposed to blowing your brains out, feeling a rush or killing yourself) is wonderful, it just feels like it needs polishing. 

No offense taken i thought it was insightful to how I view the matter

I'm very sorry for your loss, I didn't mean to offend. It's difficult trying to give feedback on poetry like this because it can be very personal to the writer

My mom killed her self when I was a child so that probably makes sense of me having a juvenile depiction of suicide and thanks dually noted

Hm. A few thoughts on this poem:

- I felt that the poem was too direct. You lost me as a reader at, "because you want your brains to go splatter". It seemed like such a juvenile portrayal of the inherently dark nature of suicide. I recommend showing more, instead of telling. I've had several people close to me consider suicide in the past, and this poem just didn't feel genuine to me. I don't mean for this to discourage you, but I don't feel sympathy for the narrator here. The piece merely states how one can commit suicide. It doesn't explore the drives, the dissonance, that may lead to such an act. This is my biggest complaint of the piece, and it would be the main thing that I would want to see change.

- On the other hand, the repetition was effective in my mind. Didn't feel like too much. I also really liked the first line "Ever want to play Russian roulette just to see if your good at it" (check the grammar though, don't mean to be that guy but it's "you're".)

Thanks for sharing

Ever want to play Russian roulette just to see if you're good at it or
Even play with a semi automatic because
you want your brains to go splatter


Ever want to jump off a cliff just to feel the rush or maybe just to hit some rocks slide into the water and never come up


Ever want to swallow a bunch of pills just to see how they feel or maybe the right ones the right amount just to end it for real


Ever want to look death in the eyes and survive or maybe just do it because you're ready to die



Links to feedback 
https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/comments/619dc7/comment/dfde50v?st=J0OI1N1E&amp;sh=388d5b67

https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/comments/60wyqz/comment/dfdh3pu?st=J0OI0UOP&amp;sh=4ef60b5d

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