''Love is an addiction, so is pain''

https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/comments/86xbl3/moonlight/dw8x81t/

https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/comments/86w08d/though_i_never_saw_your_face_i_fell_in_love/dw8xnco/

all the stupid shit ive said
struggling to sentence words in my head
all the good shit that ive said
wishing you, next to me, in my bed
shit's gone too far, where has it led?
me writing shit alone in my bed

part of me wants for it to be like it was
cus for me, torment is all that it does
seeing you is the most beautiful pain
and your beauty is what drives me insane
the look in your eyes when you look in mine
thats something even this poem wont describe

when i look back at the days you were here
it makes me sad to understand it disappeared
i love the butterflies crying when youre near
but one thing i understand is crystal clear
the day you'll leave my life, is what i fear

part of me wants a life i see as i close my eyes
no bullshit and no lies
just you and me, naked, wearing no disguise
never thought i'd fall for you like this
but you know what they say, ignorance is bliss

at start it was something i could not believe
then i had to see you leave, that was mean
i understood, there was nothing it could mean
then i thought, maybe you could use a tease
that did put me at ease for couple of weeks
seeing you so weak by the words i speak
that one day i pinched your soft cheek
a memory of how good your fucking skin feels
shot through my mind, made me go fuckin blind
lost all sense of reality, felt like insanity

but at the end of the day, im here in my bed
while youre pleasing your fiancee with a head
im pretty sure thats enough said
girl, i think the butterflies are dead