Commemorating 180 days with an appropriately cheesy Rumi quote
I am 35, but I feel as though I have grown up so much in the last six months. I’ve always had my shit together, more or less, with all those trappings that make “functional” alcoholics appear to be functioning. I wasn’t really functioning, though. I was just dragging along, living for one wine o’clock to the next. I wasn’t cognizant of the world around me, nor did I care. There were a number of things that would send me into an utter tailspin, including deciding whether we want kids. That is not so anymore. Now, I can be rational even when I’m emotional. I don’t know if it’s because my brain has changed or if it’s because I’m spending more time thinking about my brain and myself. Either way, it’s a huge relief not to be engaged in a daily battle royal.
Last night my husband said that he feels so lucky that he gets to be with the real me all the time now. I am really glad about that too. I’ve been with him for nine years and I’m so proud to be the partner he deserves to have. And that I deserve to be for myself as well.
Rumi has a quote that says something like, “Look to the bandaged place. That is where the light is.” It’s so very, very true.
Thanks for everything, SD! Onto 181.
xoxoxo
Posted Apr 19, 2018, 11:52 AM UTC
Nice! Congrats on 6 months! IWNDWYT