writeonscroopy

Having a rough week and need to vent.

I am not a morning person. Never have been, never will be. I also sleep in a dark room with blackout curtains, so having sun in the morning isn't very important to me. I do try to go outside when I wake up, because that's what you're "supposed" to do, but it doesn't help. My circadian rhythm is built differently than most. I've struggled with it all my life, and have kept a 9-5 job for 18 years even though I'm not really awake until 11 or 12. I love having time in the evenings to go outside and do things, because that's when I have energy. But now where I am, it gets dark at 4:30 and I HATE IT SO MUCH.

I don't usually have SAD, so I can't tell if may

I DM’d Comcast Cares on Twitter in addition to calling them to report I still have an outage. My cable is disconnected so they need to re-attach it. The support person on Twitter told me that they could do a daily check in on my account & keep me updated with information.

“This will allow us to keep a closer tab on the order and request updates on it. We will be able to let you know if there has been any movement on the ticket.”

I know it’s not much, but at least it’s something.

When I started on my stop drinking journey, I knew it had to be permanent thing & it scared the shit out of me. How could I, whose personality was so wrapped up in booze and bars and getting blind drunk nearly every night, actually stop doing something that was so deeply engrained in me?

I guess at a certain point it becomes obvious that this thing you do that you supposedly enjoy has become more detrimental to your physical, emotional, and mental health than not doing the thing. With help from this sub and Annie Grace’s book This Naked Mind, I was finally able to really understand that booze was doing me absolutely no favors.

The first hours, days, weeks, and months are incredibly d

Hey SD Fam! In the spirit of Thankful Thursday ...

Man, I had a shit day at work. Got handed a crap project and dealt with some dumbass processes that management handed down that make no sense. You know how it goes. Stupid work, amiright?

Anyway, I work from home and used to go to the bar pretty much every day after logging off to get drunk and get some social time time in. I very, very rarely think about drinking anymore, but honestly after I was done today, a very fleeting thought crossed my mind that would it be fucking fabulous to go to the bar, get obliterated, and kvetch about my job.

It passed quickly, but I needed to get out of the house and do something. So I walked passed sever

Hey SD Fam! Checking in with yinz to share that I’ve recently celebrated 2 full years being booze free! My anniversary was actually January 28th, but I’ve been a bit busy living my life and doing my thing, so I didn’t get a chance to post last week.

I really can’t believe it’s been so long since I quit. The last night I drank, I had been bar hopping alone on a Saturday night in my neighborhood, as I was wont to do. I had dinner with a friend earlier in the evening and had some sake. She went home and I stayed out to drink more because I couldn't just have a couple sakes and leave it at that, now could I? I proceed to drink 6-8 high ABV craft beers at two other bars, then had two very strong

Hey SD fam! It's been awhile since I've posted and this milestone felt like a good day to check in. I'm creeping ever closer to my 2nd year anniversary as a non-drinker & I have this sub to thank!

At this point it's been long enough without a drink that I don't think about drinking at all on a day to day basis. However, I had an incident recently that reminded me I need to stay vigilant.

I went through a health scare just a couple weeks ago & had to get a biopsy on my left breast after a lump was found during a routine check-up and mammogram. All signs point to benign at the moment so it looks like I'm in the clear. But I gotta say, I thought to myself, what if it's cancer? How wi

Hey SD Fam! Today I've reached 500 days without a drink! Seems like just last week I was at a year, but that was about 5 months ago now. I think back to when I first quit and how the minutes and hours and days seemed so fucking long. Now I can hardly believe how much time has gone by.

I'm looking and feeling better than I have in years. I've lost 35 pounds and have toned up a lot with weightlifting, yoga, swimming, and long walks. When I see people I haven't seen in a while they comment on how good I look these days. I went to the bar with a few friends a couple weeks ago, and as I ordered a club soda with bitters, the longtime bartender said he'd heard I took a break from drinking. I told

Hey SD Fam! I thought I should check in and then realized it’s been 444 days since my last drink. I think my last post was about sober sex; this one is about the aftermath. I had my first short-term sober relationship start and stop these past few weeks. I’m bummed it didn’t work out, but I’m proud to say that I didn’t want to drink at all to deal with the shitty emotions. The thought never even crossed my mind. I’m still dealing with feeling like crap, but it’s good knowing that I’m actually processing my emotions and not numbing them with booze.

I’ve been journaling a ton and I think I’m going to try some online therapy. I thought I was ready to date again, but maybe not. It’s confusing

When I first quit drinking I was scared of the thought of having sex sober. I had been having drunk sex for so long I was scared of the intimacy, the awkwardness, and even the mechanics of sober sex. Especially after not having sex for more than a year, I was starting to wonder if I even remembered how to have sex. (I actually quit dating a couple months before I quit drinking, so it's been quite a while.)

Well, I'm happy to report that I did it & didn't die from embarrassment! Sure, there were some awkward moments as there usually are when 2 people get naked for the first time together. But overall it was really fun and it was wonderful actually being present & in the moment.

Jus

I posted a couple days ago when I stupidly smoked a pack after being quit for about 27 days. I just finished Day 2 Smoke Free (again), and I feel like shit. My throat is sore and extremely dry, I have a headache, my body aches ... I could be getting sick for real, but honestly I think it's just "quitter's flu" rearing it's ugly head. The three weeks before that, I was feeling great, going to the gym every day, and losing weight. Now I just want to sit on the couch and stuff my face with junk to try to forget how shitty I feel.

Just wanted to give some encouragement to folks to not be like me! If you've been quit for a few days, a few weeks, or even a few months, don't have one more puff! I

Hey guys. Man, I got so close to a month and I fucking smoked! I’m so annoyed at myself and now I have to ask for a badge reset. I was seriously at like 27 days when I got a HUGE craving on Sunday that wouldn’t go away. I bought a pack and smoked the last one earlier today. After the first day, I told myself I wasn’t going to smoke more, but couldn’t bring myself to throw the pack away. Of course I smoked the rest.

I wanted to make a post to remind myself why I had such a crazy craving, and hope I help someone avoid making the same mistake that I did. Now, my throat is scratchy, I woke up with a really dry throat today, and my lungs feels like shit again.

A few factors contributed to me sm

Hey SD Fam! Sorry I haven’t been around too much recently, but I wanted to check in with you all to say that I’m celebrating 400 days without drinking today! Honestly, it really snuck up on me. After I hit a year, I haven’t been keeping track of the days as closely, and I almost even missed my 400 day mark. That’s a great thing, though — it means that not drinking has become the norm for me, and it feels amazing.

I’ve been focusing on my health goals more, including going to the gym consistently, and quitting smoking. The smoking thing was going great — I almost went a full month, but I picked up a pack yesterday due to some anxiety I was feeling so now I have to head over so r/stopsmoking

I'm thinking about dipping my toe into the dating waters again, but am worried about finding places for non-drinking first dates. I like walks in the park, but that's not necessarily feasible this time of year. I'm specifically looking for places that aren't a huge time commitment, and don't cost a lot of money, so if the date doesn't work out we're not stuck at the museum, bowling, etc. So, I guess maybe funky cafes or other places around town to grab a coffee or tea? Or any other ideas for places to go or things to do? Thanks!