What depression looks like for me

This is what depression’s like for me:

It's not as if I'm sitting in despair.

I'm liable to stare at the TV

and can't be bothered to get off the chair.

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My vision blurs and everything feels gray.

One could say that I'm a royal bum.

Exactly what I feel is hard to say.

All that comes to mind is the word “numb”.

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All the dishes languish in the sink.

The laundry isn't done for days on end.

Every thought is difficult to think.

My only consolation--my best friend.

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The worst days are the ones I sleep for hours--

Disconnected from my family.

I won't get up to even take a shower

and everything is meaningless to me.

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Rarely I’ll be waiting for a train

and think of how I'd really like to jump.

So far, at least, I’ve talked back to my brain

and mostly what I am is just a grump.

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I'm writing this to simply let you know

not everyone's depression looks the same.

I'm hopeful now to see awareness grow.

For anyone who suffers, have no shame.

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