Brutal feedback please. Is it cringey? What lines, words can i remove/replace? Any help would be appreciated

I made a comprehensive cons list

I write all the rotten things you ever told me.

Reading it helps me ball up my fist

Wondering how I ever let you hold me

Its easy to blame you for everything last year

To say “thank god I’m out”

Oh how I abhor you when I tell anyone willing to hear

of our every verbal bout.

But to make a pros list, I don’t dare

As I feel Truth slowly lurk

To convince myself, I can’t bear

That we loved each other but still could not work

So I cheat on Truth with that list

And every night I sleep with a smile

Hoping tomorrow you won’t be missed

Hoping I won’t see you for a while

But the sunlight comes and the list has gone

He snuck out some time last night

What’s left behind is truth mid-yawn

Standing next to my dresser upright

Oh how I hate every morning

How I hate waking up not next to you

So I try to kill our memories aborning

By reading the list that does misconstrue

But last night I caught Truth’s reflection

As I gaily walked down Ignorance Street

Then I saw him at the Acceptance and Feelings intersection

When will truth fucking leave?

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1)https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/comments/9eivsz/the_everknowing_heart/e5qb7vv/?context=3

2)https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/comments/9egttd/what_once_was/e5po46q/?context=3