It's time for a change.

It’s time for me to change. I’m stuck in this vicious cycle and I need to break out. I have had enough ups and downs in life that I don’t need to add more. I have had my fair share of losses and the few wins here and there. 2 years ago I never gambled but I was introduced to by my ex-girlfriend along with the whole bar scene. I’ll admit it was quite fun in the moment but the amount of money I ended up spending and not saving for bills and sometime even food. I was hooked from the first moment. It didn’t help that I won on some of my very first times playing. I always use to be a money saver but now I can’t seem to hold on to 5 dollars even. My outlook on money has completely changed. I don’t make a ton of money and work hard for what I do get. I definitely have enough money if I don’t throw it all away in one night after payday. Especially when all I’m doing is losing and walking to the ATM time after time until it’s all gone. I know it’s some sort of escape for me among other things but this is definitely not something that will end well if I keep going at this rate. Honestly it’s even hard to post this anonymously but this is it. Today marks my day one. No more gambling or drinking for me. I wish everyone here the best. I’m going to do my best to report in each day. Sorry for my rambling but I needed to get it out. Thanks everyone and best of luck with your own struggles.