I am Uncomfortable.

When I sit in my car at an intersection and watch the cars stop and go and turn and honk, I am uncomfortable. 

When I am in public and I watch people wave and lift their arms in conversation, and begging and crawling like ants in every direction, I am uncomfortable.

When I hear people speak about the thing everyone is speaking about like they are delivering some new never thought about piece of wisdom, I am uncomfortable.

This feels like I am a background character in a game and I wish I could at least have a map and destination in the corner of my vision.

I wish I could at least have people marked by who to avoid, who to love, who to hate and who to fear so I don't have to 
fear and avoid 
them all. 

If this is a simulation and free will doesn't exist then at least it could be easier. 

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