Anyone try being strategically negative?
Like if your self-esteem is already low but you take it down to the next level.
Example: "she probably wouldn't go out with me" to "she definitely wouldn't"
It's a strategy that I've been using for a while but I think it's somewhat backfiring. At first there I noticed there is a sense of peace. Having the slight glimmer of hope "oh if i only fixed this" makes way for feeling like shit.
I'm sure I've made my problem worse in the case that I do intend to fix it any time later.
Sorry if I'm just rambling, my medication makes me feel drugged out and just choatic thoughts.
Posted Mar 17, 2019, 5:34 AM UTC
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I don't think there's anything strategic about it, I'm just a miserable person.
My self esteem is so low and my self hatred is so high that I know that nobody will be interested as me. I'm not even interested in making friends at this point because I know I'll fuck it up and end up worse off than I did before.