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SLDGM

84lbs Down | 13 to go

And I don't know how I feel
Like, I am seriously impressed I have gotten this far, the scale and my clothing size are showing the lowest numbers my whole adult life (I was bigger than I am now in High School)
But my brain still won't get on board, I look in the mirror and I still see 242lb me staring back. I hate her, I want her gone and forgotten, but because I've never seen myself smaller, I just can't see it.
How have the rest of you who have reached the goal, or are close to goal, dealt with this?

Posted Jul 23, 2019, 1:37 AM UTC

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spinaroundchinaman•

I’m nowhere near my goal, and restarting AGAIN tomorrow. But what about some before and after pictures? Use the “layout” app to do some side by sides! It’s hard to see the difference every day but 84 POUNDS?! that’s amazing!!!!! Apparently that’s about the weight of a newborn calf or a 6th grader!!! Can you imagine carrying that around?! I hope you can see how awesome you’re doing!

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SLDGMOP31/F/5'5" | SW: 242 CW: 152 GW: 145•

I can absolutely see it in photos, I post them up on Insta to remind myself of how far I've come
For some reason my brain can process it whilst I am looking at a photo, but not in the mirror, so all these new clothes I have purchased out of necessity I think I look like a sausage squished in it's casing, yet it looks great it in photos.
It's just such a weird thing
Good luck on your restart! I wish you all the best

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spinaroundchinaman•

I totally get it! I feel the same way most of the time when i try on my clothes.

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SLDGMOP31/F/5'5" | SW: 242 CW: 152 GW: 145•

And yeah, I used to be able to pick my 7 year old nephew up and carry him around quite easily, now I struggle to even piggyback him and he weighs less than 84lbs
I can't comprehend how I carried that around all day everyday

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wrknsmart62F 6', SW 257, CW 195, GW 175 11/14/18•

It's the casual comments that we toss out that can be so shocking. Recognizing that your nephew weighs as much as the fat you used to carry is so cool.

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[deleted]•

Some things that help:

  • get new clothes that fit the new you, or get current favorite clothes altered to fit
  • look at a photo of you now and compare to a photo of you at your highest weight
  • look at a picture of you now standing next to someone you've always thought of as being slim

This is actually a common problem (you can find other posts here about "body dysmorphia"). I lost 30 lbs in 6 months and the relatively sudden transition to US size 4/small/very small is difficult to get used to after a lifetime of being US size 14/16/XL. I see myself in the mirror at the gym and think I am so big, and then I see someone next to me in mirror and realize they're bigger than I am. I think it's just going to take some time to get used to.

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