Going to psych eval tomorrow...

I'm going to a psychiatrist to get an evaluation, possibly get prescribed meds...get a diagnosis? tbh I'm not 100% sure what to expect. I went to one after a suicide attempt, 10 years ago, but I was not completely honest with them, so I was not given any meds. I went to therapy after that, but the person broke confidentiality to my parents, so I closed myself off completely from them.
I have tried to self-help myself by using CBT as much as I could... it sort of worked? I've gone through moments of sociability that I didn't think I could ever go through... I have a partner now. but I have gone through low periods where I get depressed, anxious, super agoraphobic.
Right now, I'm in a huge depressive spiral. I sought out a therapist that I think is sort of working for me, about 7 months ago... but I've not really gotten better, and they think I fit the criteria for clinical depression. I've never done any meds, and I'm still really conflicted about the idea. [to be clear, I do not think there should be any stigma against using meds, and I'm aware the research has been pretty clear that therapy and meds together tend to provide the best results for most mental issues.]
Not even sure why I'm posting... perhaps just venting. There's a glimmer of hope that meds can be at least helpful in getting me going again.