I've just turned 31, and started going to a psychiatrist for a depression that has been going on for just about 2 years (in a certain way, I'm not sure if I've ever NOT been depressed or anxious, just variations on a theme.) I've improved from my worst - a suicide attempt when I was 21. I was not prescribed anything at the time, and therapists I met with suuucked. I adopted CBT as my mantra, but have just been shit at getting my major life shit in order. I dropped out of college and never went back. but I got 4 jobs since and I guess excelled enough at them to get promotions and stuff. 3 of them I panic-quit because of major depressive spirals caused by ridiculous procrastination, misc avoid
A recent post just got me thinking... as a cis-dude, I've always dressed with plain-clothes t-shirt and jeans... I've had a short haircut and mild beard. I'm also brown-ish, and kind of chose to wear as plain of a t-shirt, hoodie, jeans, shoes... as much as possible. I have this inner feeling of wanting to be anonymous in public, so if I do something embarrassing, it can't be traced back to me at all. Is this something common to y'all?
I'm going to a psychiatrist to get an evaluation, possibly get prescribed meds...get a diagnosis? tbh I'm not 100% sure what to expect. I went to one after a suicide attempt, 10 years ago, but I was not completely honest with them, so I was not given any meds. I went to therapy after that, but the person broke confidentiality to my parents, so I closed myself off completely from them.
I have tried to self-help myself by using CBT as much as I could... it sort of worked? I've gone through moments of sociability that I didn't think I could ever go through... I have a partner now. but I have gone through low periods where I get depressed, anxious, super agoraphobic.
Right now, I'm in a hug
I got a huge set of flavor extracts from my brother since he stopped vaping, and I've been going through them recently. I just made a juice from a "pizza" flavor, and it's probably the worst thing I've made so far. I know PG is often used in processed foods - but do any of y'all have any experience in using juice for cooking, or any other application?
