[Vent] Anxieties as an adult

DAE still have anxiety when they make a (minor) mistake because you think of what their parents would say?

Like I started a new job a few weeks ago, so I was buying a new life insurance plan through my employer. I made the mistake of opting, on impulse, into their rider for accidental death and dismemberment insurance an extra $5.50 per month (which is relatively little compared to what I make in a pay period), before I realized I might have wasted my money (I know dad said that those sorts of policies were a waste of money especially since I'd already have term life insurance).

I shit you not, I freaked out when I was home alone (I live on my own, my parents sometimes visit, but they've kinda mellowed out now that I live hundreds of miles away). Like I think my AP dad (from the past) was in my head or something. I even called my folks to apologize, and they honestly seemed to be more like "WTF, why are you freaking out like you just robbed a bank, IRV? It's only $72 a year. That's fine, it's your life, you're a grown man with a professional job, you figure it out." I think even now, when I have my own life, my own relationships independent of whether mom and dad like her or not, my own job, my own freaking place, and so on, I feel as if I'm still five years old.

Like I got even more AP-like than my actual frakking APs nowadays, like I'm freaking out about my own relatively minor mistakes like it's the end of the world.