Sometimes I feel so detached from this world. I don’t fit in anywhere and being CF doesn’t help. Sometimes I feel like I just need someone to tell me I’m doing alright.
It’s dumb I know. I’m a full grown adult in their mid 30s and I have a job and all that. I’m a passionate person and I love my life. Not that I believe in meanings of life but I enjoy spending time on my interests. I don’t want kids for many reasons but mostly I don’t want to shape another living being into something that suits my fantasy it feels wrong. Also I dislike kids with their screams and teens with their puberty. So yes I made up my mind. But being off the mainstream, sometimes I feel so much loneliness. It’s not that I want to go out with a bunch of people talking about something in common. It’s more like the occasional “fuck am I the only one thinking this way? Am I insane!?” Right now this is triggered cuz a close relative has popped her kids recently and there are baby photos everywhere. Sometimes I just wish there’s someone wise and powerful telling me “you are insane, sure. I mean.. look at you! but you are also doing alright”.
Posted Mar 29, 2020, 10:26 PM UTC
Get the fuck off Facebook and unfollow the baby barrage.
What you see in pictures is FAKE bullshit.
The reality is that don’t post the pictures of the misery, they don’t post their exponentially growing debt, they don’t talk about pissing themselves constantly, and they probably didn’t have money to eat a decent dinner.
If you want reality go time/deadbedrooms or scarymommy
I still have a hard time believing people are lying on the internet!!! Okay yeah I know it’s my own fault... I don’t even use Facebook... I only check my Instagram feeds once a month to give “likes” to relatives so they are not pissed at me... Maybe should stop doing that......
Def stop doing that. You’re just feeding their addiction and entitlement.
No matter what you do it will never be enough. That’s the way addiction works.
You’re not responsible for people pleasing them.
You have a life. You have plans. You are waaaay too busy. You always have plans. A plan is staring at a wall, looking for four leaf clovers in your yard, artistically buttering your toast.
As a CF person you always have plans. You keep them on a low information diet. They don’t need to know anything about your time. Schedule, income, outgo... anything.
Because all they are doing is looking for a way to use you to get high or pay for their lives or work for them for free and of course worship them.
Once you realize that EVERY Mombie and daddict works the same way, you realize that it has nothing to do with you personally. You’re just being used like they use anyone. That removes the personal from the equation and you can just move on.
“You never like my pictures....”
“Wow. People are dying in a global pandemic and you’re begging for clicks? Get over yourself. Don’t ever contact me about such complete nonsense again.”
Shit I should definitely stop it... you are right... I’m absolutely busy and enjoying my life to the max. Sure I’m autistic and not so great with people and all that and I do have my struggles but I’m doing research that I’m genuinely passionate about and I’m also running a fucking tech company with people I work well with for god sake. Why would I feel bad and click likes on people’s fucking naked baby pics just so that they don’t put shame on me... it’s just so ridiculous... fuck them! Thanks buddy i surely needed this!!
Excellent.
And this is where that self respect comes in. When in doubt, reread your own words.
Stay the course.