Sometimes I feel so detached from this world. I don’t fit in anywhere and being CF doesn’t help. Sometimes I feel like I just need someone to tell me I’m doing alright.

It’s dumb I know. I’m a full grown adult in their mid 30s and I have a job and all that. I’m a passionate person and I love my life. Not that I believe in meanings of life but I enjoy spending time on my interests. I don’t want kids for many reasons but mostly I don’t want to shape another living being into something that suits my fantasy it feels wrong. Also I dislike kids with their screams and teens with their puberty. So yes I made up my mind. But being off the mainstream, sometimes I feel so much loneliness. It’s not that I want to go out with a bunch of people talking about something in common. It’s more like the occasional “fuck am I the only one thinking this way? Am I insane!?” Right now this is triggered cuz a close relative has popped her kids recently and there are baby photos everywhere. Sometimes I just wish there’s someone wise and powerful telling me “you are insane, sure. I mean.. look at you! but you are also doing alright”.